Psalm 6: 2-4
2 Have mercy on me, Lord, for I am faint; heal me, Lord, for my bones are in agony. 3 My soul is in deep anguish. How long, Lord, how long? 4 Turn, Lord, and deliver me; save me because of your unfailing love.
At the beginning of this Psalm, David is praying for the Lord to have mercy on him because he is suffering from a serious illness from which he believes he will not recover. He talks about his inner self being disturbed and troubled and he prays for God to speak words of Peace to him.
As I read it, the thought crossed my mind that dealing with depression and loneliness feels exactly like that; troubled and disturbed, sad, always hoping for something to change; for someone to come along and make those feelings all go away. Of course, no person can “make it go away”‘ but only be an encouragement to you as you try to find peace. The Lord, however, CAN make it go away, but not without effort on our own part, of course.
As David did in the Psalms, we must go to God in prayer and seek his help. If we are sincere in our requests to Him, He will answer those requests in His perfect timing. He will direct us to His word , specifically to verses that speak directly to us the words he wants us to hear. He will place what I call his “earth angels” on our path who encourage us. I have personally experienced that in my life in several different ways. He put many people on my path; new friends who have been and continue to be an encouragement to me in many different areas of my life. Over and over, I will hear messages repeated, either in sermons, on the radio, or in other venues. I read them in blogs on the internet, in books I am reading, all of which are referring to different issues which are on my mind.
Some would say that it is just coincidence but no, that is the Lord working on me. As I draw ever closer to Him, I hear his words more and more frequently it seems. In part, I believe, it is because I recognize them more quickly; but also now that the Lord has my attention, He is making sure He keeps it.
Through this whole process I have seen changes in how I feel about myself and about my life, both past and present. I see my priorities beginning to change, my energy level returning. One event that really showed me those changes happened a few weeks ago when the Lord led me to be able to write and give a eulogy at the funeral of my former husband; something that a few months ago I could not have done and would not have done.
It is an ongoing journey, a lifelong one, this walk with the Lord and I am so thankful I am able to take the journey and walk the path with Him.